"Current"ly

The current in the river of my life carries me right now.  I do not swim.  This seems to imply that I drift, at ease, laying back on my water.  This is not the case.  I am just so immersed in my river, my current is so strong, it pushes me forward, forcefully.  And I am so exhausted, I just let it.  I cannot say I am unhappy about this.  But I do feel out of control of my own life at times.